Thoughts: Avengers: Infinity War (SPOILERS)


Directed by: Anthony  & Joe Russo
Release Date: April 27, 2018

Full disclosure: This is more of a stream of conscious ramble of thoughts regarding the film than a straight forward review. It’s abundantly clear from the following that I have way too much love for fictional characters.

There will be lots of spoilers as I intend to just dump all my thoughts I have below. So if you haven’t seen the movie or if you have a lot of feelings about spoilers, please stay away.

Seriously. I will spoiler everything.

Thursday was an extremely long day for me.  Ten years of movies had led to that night. I don’t think I can properly convey my excitement as I sat bouncing my knee at my desk counting down the hours that I could leave for the theater. My phone was buzzing next to me as I worked.  My friends were already there and waiting in line. One friend had decided to build an infinity gauntlet out of duck tape and ring pops. We were all very excited. We had been discussing our theories for weeks leading up to Thursday night. We’d spent the past few weekends re-watching all of the movies from the MCU and we thought we knew how it was all going to go down.  We were prepared for our favorites to die noble deaths as they saved the universe. After 10 years we were pretty confident in the formula for a Marvel movie.

The excitement was palpable as they finally let us into the theater. Many of us holding onto souvenir cups and buckets of popcorn large enough to feed a small army. We joked how this movie was going to hurt so good. We joked how we were going to get our hearts broken and it was going to be awesome.

There was talk about getting pancakes after the movie because we thought we’d be excited to discuss the movie afterwards. Many of us had work in the morning but we were okay with being exhausted. We had waited so long for this movie and we knew the MCU was going to change forever afterwards.  We were going to want to discuss it all.

I’m assuming if you’re reading this that you have watched the film, but if not here’s your last chance to turn back before the spoilers.


So, here’s the set up:

There are six infinity stones, space, time, reality, power, mind, and soul. Throughout the past ten years and 20 movies we have come to know 5 of these stones. After the first Avengers movie we were introduced to Thanos and his one goal to collect all 6 of the stones and to wipe out half of the universe. Avengers: Infinity War is when everything finally comes to a head.  Where the heroes we’ve been getting to know over the entirety of the MCU have to finally face Thanos and stop him from acquiring all of the stones and wiping out half of the universe with a snap of his fingers.

What followed in that movie was not at all what we had anticipated. After the credits rolled we all sat in our seats for a moment. A few of us yelled in mock anger because well, we could never really be angry. We’re too far deep into our love of fictional characters. A few of us cried tears over the characters we lost and me I sat in denial.  Those of us who had been most excited passed on the pancakes. We were tired and needed to get home. The next morning, I say without exaggeration, I woke up with what I call a sadness hangover. My head was foggy and my eyes hurt and I felt more exhausted than I had in a very long time.

The next morning, I was finally ready to discuss the film but I also knew that there weren’t many that had seen it yet. Many were planning to see it that weekend or were waiting for the lines to die down. Some people at work asked me how it had been. I just shook my head and told them, I hadn’t expecting it to go down that way. Then I stared off into the distance like a soldier returned from war. One of my coworkers asked if I was okay because I seemed shook to my core.

Off the top of my head I counted 15 characters who died in this film. I know I’m forgetting someone and I know there may be more who died off screen. What surprised me and probably man others were the characters they chose to kill of, however. I was prepared for some of the original Avengers to die. I was prepared for their noble deaths. I wasn’t prepared for the MCU to kill those who would become the future of the MCU. Which is probably why I was and still am in denial.  Those who are dead cannot possibly stay dead. There has to be some sort of reset in the next film. Yet, it doesn’t change it from still hurting. There are many theories swirling around as to how the team will recover the time stone and how far back they will rewind time.  Everyone has a different idea of either how far back they will go or which deaths might be permanent. If you ask me? Those who died before the snap will probably be permanent and this second time around we’ll see a Hulk.


Thursday night as we were leaving my friend mentioned her cousin taking her children (two boys under the age of ten) to see the movie that weekend. My first impulse was “oh those poor children”. When I say this movie was heartbreaking and dark, I mean it. There were specific scenes which still haunt me days later. It had been 10 years and we had never seen our heroes lose in this way on this scale. Civil War showed us that our heroes were not perfect and they had flaws.  This film showed us that they could be beaten and they could lose even after giving everything up.

Looking back on the movie it was the deaths of Gamora and Vison which haunt me the most. It was that these characters were willing to give up everything in order to stop Thanos. They made the decisions to end their lives for the greater good but their sacrifices never even slowed him down. Throughout the film I kept waiting for the tides to change. I kept waiting for my heroes to start winning and they never did.

Wanda and Peter were asked to make the impossible decisions to kill the person they love in order to protect the universe or for those decisions to mean nothing in the end. Gamora grabbing the knife to take her own life in order to prevent Thanos from acquiring the soul stone was crushing.

I know I’m being a little dramatic here, but it was kind of a dramatic movie. Yet, even through all of this the movie was able to pull out its patent sense of humor that one has come to expect from a Marvel film. Something that a certain other films have had a hard time replicating.

In a film of mostly death, the film still managed to make the audience laugh and giving breathing room for a few seconds before darkness fell back down across our heroes. My favorite parts include Steve introducing himself to Groot, Bucky picking up Rocket and using him as an extra gun, anytime that Tony and Dr. Strange interacted and Peter Parker’s excited/serious face when he was made an official avenger.  The audience cheered anytime one of our favorites entered the screen and that’s why I love going to see movies opening night. The crowds on opening night are just as excited as I am and just as involved with the story on screen. The excitement of the audience when Black Widow and Okoye fought side by side to defend Wanda is something that I’ll remember forever.


There are amazing moments that I won’t forget but I might just have to turn off the movie as soon as Thanos reaches Wakanda in the future.  I look forward to view this movie again.  There was a lot of information to take in.

Now that the movie has been out for a few days, I’ve been delving into multiple discuss with friends and coworkers.  We’re all discussing what Dr. Strange’s plan must be. I trust in Dr. Strange that he’s looked into the future and he knows the one path which will lead to their victory.  I believe that there is a lot that’s going to have to happen in the next movie and I can barely wait till next year to see how this all happens.

This movie really did surprise me in unexpected ways. I look forward to seeing how they will continue to surprise me with Part 2. I don’t think this is the last time we’ll be seeing a lot of these characters and that gives me hope.

Again, I know I am way too overly attached to these fictional characters, but hey I wouldn’t be me if I wasn’t.

What were some of your favorite scenes? What deaths hit you the hardest?

P.S. Can we discuss how Thor went to the heart of a dying star for a weapon only a god could wield while Steve thought, “I have two fists, a can-do attitude and rage to spare. Imma fight Thanos with my bare hands *rawr*”. If anyone asks why I love Cap. That’s why.

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